I haven't been good at posting here, I am afraid that what I have to say isn't interesting enough, and I hate editing my work. So I am going to just write please excuse the lack of proof reading.
I have started a journey to better health, by joining a gym and Spark People. Tracking my food was helpful but it seemed to take me so much time so I fell off that wagon, need to start again since it lead to more mindful eating. Trips to the gym have been hard to stay consistent with since it is summer and I am not in town all the time. Then the cycle of guilt starts which leads to an interest in just quitting - then I can live in ignorance of my behavior again. AND how am I ever going to do this when I start classes again in the fall!?!?!
I thought life was going to get easier as I got older, and NO I just have tons of additional issues . . . like I want to eat healthy, and environmentally well - so I am checking fruit for where it came from, nothing from Chili or Europe (bananas are an exception to this rule since they can't be local). So since I am on the east coast I look for apples from NY and strawberries from FL. When I can't find regionally sourced food should I let go of my desire to be healthy in deference to the environment?? And this type of argument is found in other parts of my life too - try to clean out a closet - I end up with piles for local thrift, trash, save for later etc I am always trying to reduce what goes to the landfill - which sometimes leaves me with even more clutter in my house - GRRR!!!! I need to find balance and a way to forgive myself for not being the perfect human I want to be, oh goodie another self discovery journey, well that is today's rant thanks for listening
